xylom [Profile] 2012/7/19 - 12:12:20
I was so proud of this, and now I can't stand to look at it. All I got out of it was a cramping hand from using a mouse, and more hate for what I can't do.
I feel like, I cannot draw what I want, it just cannot come out right. I hate my style, hate my art in general. I'm trying so hard to change it, but it seems to be doing no good..
I know that improving takes time unless you have experianced people to teach you, or you are just a prodigy. I have and or am neither. Only myself, and it seems to be doing me more harm than good.
I just do not know.. I hate that I feel like I'm ranting, and that others just see it as me wanting pity, but that isn't it. I honestly cannot accept my drawings, I cannot see anything good in them. I'm on the extreme end of hating everything I try to draw.. It feels like it is to the point that I want to quit and never try drawing again.. I look at others who are on levels far above me, yet they have been drawing the same amount of time I have. It hurts to see, that I am not as good as they are, nor will ever be.
I try so hard to see what others see,but in my mind I can't, and I always believe they lie when they say they like what I draw.
I want to feel that I've improved, but I see almost none over the years. I'm so sick of it.
Just practicing feathers and gryphons I guess, to 'try' to improve. nothing else about it.
xylom [Profile] 2012/7/19 - 12:15:53
mysticmoocow [Profile] 2012/7/19 - 14:43:4
....I'd be over the moon if I could draw digital art like you.... This picture is beautiful... the beak and eye are fantastic! Seriously! Don't get down on yourself, you are so talented and not liking it is crazy talk!
Honestly you are fantastic... Keep it up! ^_^
[anon]starwarsdragon 2012/7/19 - 15:28:43
Ok do you mind if I tell you what I really think? Please Please Please believe me when I say I absolutely LOVE your art. I'm not lying I promise. Don't get down about not having great art because you do, if you don't like the style then change it, but don't ever think you art is terrible because it's not.
lazulidragon [Profile] 2012/7/19 - 15:40:21
Xylom, you are an amazing artist. I always have loved your art. I understand that you may be feeling down right now, but this is amazing! You may not be able to see it right now, but your art is fantastic! You have been improving a lot whether you know it or not. The feathers on this are so soft looking and pretty. The eye is so intense and is really brought out by the background. That ear looks downright real. Don't give up! Never give up! Every time you draw you get better. Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming, what do you do? You swim, swim, swim. I know what it is like to feel bad about your art. My own dad hates mine. He makes fun of my drawings and pictures and says they are a waste of time. Sometimes I want to throw all my art away, sometimes I want to quit and never draw again. But you just have to hang in there. It happens to all artists out there. You need to know that there are people who care and enjoy your art, that it is magnificant and people look up to you and say, "I wish I could do that." I know for one that I have said that. I wish I could do something this good! Keep up your art and never give up!
pumadragon [Profile] 2012/7/19 - 16:20:5
k, seriously, I can't even do lineless :/
lady_miragon [Profile] 2012/7/19 - 17:37:54
I'm not kidding when I say that I love seeing your art. It's way better than mine, no joke. I am always learning something new from your drawings and I aspire to be as good as you. You inspired me to start doing graphic computer art. :c) Keep your chin up. Like everything,especially music (which I play a lot of), practice + time = improvement. That is the recipe for success. It may be subtle, but improvements are improvements.
Just a little critique and PLEASE don't think badly of yourself or take offense. The feather's on the lower half of the gryphon's body need to be more subtle. I use to own birds and you can't really see individual feathers very well on the main body. They are VERY subtle. They way you did the feathers around the eyes and underneath the beak are perfect. There's enough shading of the feathers to get that they are feathers and not fur. That's how birds look ALL OVER except on the wings.
This is really good Xylom. Truly, it is. You do lintless art beautifully. I'm just barely starting on lineless and my pictures look like blobs. Please know that NDA, or at least me, love seeing your art here. It's inspirational. Please keep drawing! PLEEEEAAAASSSEEE!!!! <3
miirshroom [Profile] 2012/7/19 - 19:22:14
Well, I think that's a handsome gryphon right there. Everything in the facial area is wonderfully defined! The browns could use a little hue variation, I suppose (maybe pick up on the greens from the background a bit, and add more red/dark purples to the shadows for contrast). Getting colour balances that look right just takes practice, like with everything else in drawing. Eeeeveryone practices.
It's a remarkable improvement from the gryphon that you drew almost exactly one year ago. I am upset with you for NOT submitting this to the hoards.
[anon]yasha_notloggedin 2012/7/20 - 10:0:49
I know how that feels, Xylom. I remember you from before you were Xylom, and I've always liked your style, and I have to confess I'm actually very jealous of your art. I wish I could draw like you, and hell, I wish I could draw like _tyler_ does now? You and Tyler have surpassed me, and I blame it on my being idle for so long because of other things in my life. I know I could be so much better if I could go to art school, and I'm nowhere near a prodigy. I'm going on 20 years old, and I can only draw portraits of people on here. I can't even draw animals. My pictures take so long only because I'm doing guess work on everything. Reference materials make no sense to me, mainly because I hate looking at them when I'm drawing only to compare the two and realize I'm not doing well. I take crits with gritted teeth, but that's only when I get them. I don't get really comment or critiques on here. Sometimes I just start to hate my art, so I withdraw for days at a time, and during that I can only draw craptastic scribbles in my sketchbook.
So, yes, I know how you feel. But I want you to know that you're never as bad at art as you think you are. You're in a level way over me, and I've technically been here since 2005 (except when the very first spam war hit, my account got deleted and I was grounded for a long time). But don't ever give up, because all the talent that you have that just needs more refining will just backtrack and you'll be back to square one.
xylom [Profile] 2012/7/20 - 18:0:35
Thank you all, so very much.. It seriously means a lot to me that you guys actually have time to listen to my problems and try to help. I really do take your helpful and kind comments to heart <3
I really wish I knew why I see things the way I do. I guess that I've been so hard on my drawings for so long, I cannot see it anyother way. But to know that there are some people who care means so much.
As for the crits, I'm fine with them. I critique my own art so much that I need other peoples' points of view. I know that I put more definition on the chest feathers than I probably should, but I do not think every gryphon, like every bird, is the same. I like to think the feathers are more "fluffy", like a lion's mane, the other creature of which the gryphon is half based on. True that in reality most birds have smooth, sleek feathers, but there are some that do not have them all through their bodies.
I'll try to work on it though, what I did here is just a personal preference of how I like to view the creature.
As for the shading, that is a very good point. I rarely use completely different colors to shade my work, I'll have to test that out.
Again, thank you all for the feedback, and the help <3